Sunday, October 4, 2015

HolidazeBlog Halloween Challenge Day 4: Biggest Fear

About five years ago if you asked me this question it would be simply... What's my biggest fear? Spiders. I'm not talking about the little jobbers that you find around your house year round. Wolf spiders eat me up. Anything larger than that create panic and dread in me, but times have changed and I've evolved and the panic attacks I get from spiders are now rivaled by one thing: Losing my family.

I have random shocking horrible thoughts of losing all or one of them. It's paralyzing, and it's absurd, but once the though is in my brain I have to reach out to them and make sure they're fine. It's for that reason that I find watching invasion Horror difficult anymore. Movies like The Mist or A Serbian Film send me to tears (of course that's after I'm done laughing at A Serbian Film and enjoying the giant interdimensional creatures from The Mist). You put on Pet Sematary and I lose my shit. I don't know if it's instinct or a protective daddy nature, but first I get this adrenaline rush followed by sadness.

Other fears include: Heights (I get vertigo something fierce), Losing my job (because I don't think I can find another one that let's me wear Horror Tees and listen to soundtracks), Humidity... in the basement... where I keep my Horror prizes and dogs jumping at me while I'm wearing flip flops.

1 comment:

  1. Failure. I could say spiders, but it ain't got nothing on absolute failure.